Haphazard.. Going with the Flow

There are too many things running into my mind right now...
I am just unable to categorize them..
Organise them..
To make sense..


All I know is..
These thoughts are not Technical

Dont know how to define technical now..
Its not like the usual cause and effect thoughts..
Action and reaction thoughts..

Or wait are they..
I am completely going nuts here..

But this feeling is cool..
Like floating in the air..
Eating an ice cream..
Feeling the wind rush past yours ears..

Like the  rain drops on your closed eyes..

Its d feeling of crying.. for the sheer love of it..
Like screaming.. just to vacate the hollow in stomach..

Running.. just to get exhausted..
N Smiling... For absolutely no reason at all..

I always feel this way..
Isn't it a little weird..

N what is more weirder ..
I hear ppl say..

I deperately want this ...
This is the love of my life..
I want to do thi..s this.. things before I die..
I want to visit a place at least once..

God I want this, I dont like this,
I love this.. M madly in love with that..
Cant ask for more.. etc etc

I never feel so desperately for anything ever..
But that doesnt mean I dont want anything..

I like things,..
In-fact I love few things..
The most precious moments..

I even imagine things..
Just the way I like it..

But I cant demand or stick to it..
Or fight for it..
Coz I always feel there are things..

Which are bound to happen
N they will happen..

No matter how hard I strain myself
Or
No matter I pay attention to it or no..

N then all I want, All that might happen, All that might not..
Comes collapsing on me..
Like the building of cards..

N
I cant stop smiling at my Haphazard thoughts..
Which always make me go with the flow of my life..
Making me happy.. sad on its way..
Showing me my most precious moments..
I wudnt have ever dreamt of..